Friday, April 30, 2010

Krishna and Grandmother.

I guess nobody will write about my grandmother. Here is my humble prostration at her feet who taught me devotion as a young kid. She told us many many stories of Krishna and inculcated faith and devotion in us.
In our family, the deity worshipped is Bhagavathi, the mother goddess. And in our village the protector deity is RajaRajeshwara, Shiva. But my favorite hero deity became Krishna which on the most part is due to her.

She told about Krishna’s consummate life-
As a baby he was the cutest and the most mischievous one stealing the hearts of all Gopis.
As an adolescent, the strongest, taming Kuvalaya (elephant), defeating Chanura and Mushtika (great wrestlers) and killing Kansa (Krishna’s Uncle and the dreaded Asura (demon) King).
As a romantic hero he abducted princess Rukmini from her kingdom!
As a great scholar, the most noble and knowledgeable expounding Holy Gita to Arjuna.
As the shrewdest diplomat dealing with the war of Dharma (righteousness) at Kurukshethra.
Also when old, the most dispassionate, comforting Arjuna and Udhava before his final departure.

One common theme underlying all these roles is the irresistible charm he displayed enacting all of these roles.


I was introduced to Krishna by my angel Grandmother. She was a person who knew only to love; I haven’t heard her uttering any word against anyone. When she used to come home for weekends, it becomes a celebration for us. We spent most of our time with her; sleeping beside her bedside how many stories had been told and re-told. The whole of Ramayana, Mahabharatha, some from Bhagavatha and other Puranas (epics). She didn’t have any formal education, but had memorized all these stories and described them with great clarity and devotion.

She spent most part of her old age near Thrichambaram ShriKrishna temple. She once told that in this temple any celebration/procession will not involve elephants because the Krishna was installed in that Bhava (mood) after taming Kuvalaya. I have also heard from people that once when they tried to take one elephant there, it didn’t agree to cross the small stream adjacent to temple and ran away!


But her love was always taken for granted and I doubted that her opinions are not given due consideration and always brushed aside by her loved ones as something from an ignorant person. Towards her final days she was always lost in thought and became extremely happy whenever we told we are returning after praying in Krishna temple. I wonder all that she thought and saw those days was only Krishna and Gopis of Vrindavan.

She expressed only simple desires and the one which I really felt bitter for her sons is when she asked for a white rubber sandal and nobody paid any attention. Because she was not traveling outside her home, nobody heeded to that request. And couple of days later she passed away. More than for her separation I was very sad that none of her children could fulfill this simplest of her request.

I am sure at our family cremation ground near ancestral home where we all get cremated after death, her benign presence will always comfort us and none of us feel scared to go there in life or death.

Time for a beautiful song:-D
You can see the charming Krishna’s in this song. In this movie, “Nandanam”, the story takes a beautiful turn when Krishna appears. All songs in this movie (except one) are about him and one can see the enigma and mysticism in this song. How easily he cheers up this crestfallen gopika and how fast he steals her heart and how enigmatically he vanishes and appears at times. I was enchanted with the story of this movie, one of the best that I have seen in recent times. She could only wonder as to what’s really happening as Krishna seems so close one moment and, very far, the next moment!

Krishna comes to you in whichever form you want him to.
Guruji said that even the staunchest renunciates were charmed by Krishna’s beauty.
Which Gopika wouldn't want to dance with him!

Let all consciousness be filled with the beauty of Krishna’s love.
Hari OM!
JaiGurudev!

PS: This is about my paternal grandmother whom we all called Valliamma. 

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Our Childhood Vishu

Vishu is the new year celebration very special to Kerala. For kids this is the best day of the year. All my memories of a vishu rushing in and I am going to re-live it now.:-D

Dawn of this day, in all households in my village, there will be Kani (something like an auspicious omen to see and start the New Year). Mother prepares kani on the eve of vishu, gets up early in the morning and after herself seeing it first, shows it to all the other members of the family. Kids will be called and slowly taken to the puja (prayer) room where the kani will be ready. Till they see the Kani, mother keeps their eyes closed so that the first thing they see is the Kani.

It was our job as kids to procure mainly two things, Kanikkonna (Golden yellow flower of Casia which is the state flower-picture below) and Kula Manga (unripe mango which are picked in groups) for the Kani. These two things are hard to get especially the day before, so we always make sure to procure it early enough.
As kids the best part of Vishu is lighting fire crackers. Even two days earlier to vishu, there will be huge rush in those fire-works-shops and it was always great to go there and spent all the money we have been given to get the maximum number of crackers:-D. Once we are back, the first thing to do was to divide the crackers equally among us and promising each other that we will not touch others' share. The whole of Vishu eve and the vishu day will be reverberating with the sounds of crackers from all around.

But, in our home and many other homes in the neighbourhood, this was not how kids saw the Kani. Kani would be prepared at home for Amma. Achchan, would take both of us to temple in the night. There would be Utsavam (celebration in temple) coming from Sreekrishna temple at Thrichambaram (1km away) to our temple (supposed to be Lord Subrahmania meeting his father,  Lord Siva, who is our Temple diety) and celebrating together. At about 2 am, three of us would go following the Utsavam to the temple and after taking bath from elondhi (temple pond) enjoy the utsavam inside the temple and pray to both of the deities together. Once Lord of Thrichambaram departs, we all sleep inside the temple waiting for next day's Kani in temple. 

Achchan would call us in the morning and direct us blind folded till sopanam (the steps that leads to sanctum sanctorum of the temple) and we would wait so that the temple opens with the Kani. After seeing the beautiful temple kani we would rush back to home to light the crackers that are remaining. My bro would be reaching home first given that he could run faster than me. 

I always loved reaching home later since I would have most of MY crackers left behind while my bro would have finished his share much before :-D



Thursday, April 8, 2010

Golden Air Castle!

Today feeling ecstatic and whenever that happens a song accompanies. Here it is!!
It's from a movie called "Kalikkalam" where the hero is a thief. He is a Robin hood style one; steals from "rich but bad" people, enjoys the loot  himself and finds time to help poor people. This song epitomizes the feeling of being free and happy within. The lyrics are superb, if I try my dirty translation skills for second stanza, it would be like this,

 "Far off the shore, close to the white clouds
  A lone star that grows pale as one approaches
  A dew drop in the eye, a scent of euphoria within"
 :-D:-D:-D

Today I passed preliminary exams for PhD!!!
I knew it will happen on a Guruvaar (Thursday)!!!

Why is it so beautiful!? Only reason is that now it's sure that I will get a PhD. Had no idea when three years ago, I left for home, that I will be back to do PhD in US. Now I have something to look forward to.

Grateful for all wishes and prayers from sooooooo many people. Especially thanks to my senior here who brought food for me knowing that I skipped it. And also to my Co-Teaching Assistant who let me off from teaching couple of times seeing my crazy schedule! And also to my prof who is soooooo caring (our photo below)!!Wonder why people are such nice!!

Happy also that I haven't printed a single sheet of paper for reading which would have been such a waste. Each time a paper is printed out, it causes a tree being cut to make the extra pulp and paper and I contribute to Global Warming. Managed to read all documents in my beautiful laptop using a pdf reader software freely downloadable.(FOXIT reader).

Be in love, that's the only choice for me!!!
:-D

That's me with my prof at University of California, Los Angeles when we went there for a conference last year. Incidentally when we were there, two blocks away from us, legendary MJ died which I came to know much later!!!